Thursday, January 3, 2013

REST

     Wow! So I am at passion as you probably know,  if you know me. I fully intended for this blog today to be on what God was teaching me through a song or a speaker and I hate to disappoint but that will not be the case. God spoke to me in a way no speaker or musician could. I am still a bit in disbelief and I do not know if that is a good thing or a bad thing ha.
     As a part of what I get to do at Passion, I watch children of the passion staff which is what grants me my all access pass. I am often with the speakers and artists but as a part of what I do I am not suppose to be star struck or ask for photos or anything like that. ( not so easy) ha. I think I met my favorite today though and no one else would ever know her or her name. The last couple of weeks I have been constantly thinking and wrapping my mind around a lot. Most of this is all great stuff but nonetheless a lot. If you know me at all, you know I let this stuff get to me and tend to worry a bit too much. So as I am sitting in the session this morning this lady sits next to me in the press box and I know who she is but she has no clue who I am. Her name is Vicky and she is the head over all the intercessors at passion. She sits next to me and I am overwhelmed by a sense to ask her to pray with me. The voices within are screaming, "ASK!" "TELL HER YOU NEED PRAYER!" and the only thing I can think of is dont bother her. I figured her mind is full of so many other important things and I let the whole session go by and I said nothing. She turns and leaves and regret creeps over me like a shadow that mutes all voices.
     We go down below to get our lunch and I let the girls go and get there food and food for the little boys. When its my turn to go the line is long and full of people that you dream of meeting and seeing and I stood there alone in line. While I am standing there, I SEE HER! She is walking my way and she has a death stare on me. She stands next to me, looks at me, grabs my badge and says,"TJ". I am immediately relieved. She doesn't have to say anything but she says," I need to pray for you, how can I best do that". I immediately word vomit all over this woman and she completely understands and in the middle of this line she starts to pray for me. I am beside myself at this point and she hugs me and says, "Being busy isn't your problem. You need rest, you need rest today. The opposite of rest isn't busyness. The opposite of rest is anxiety and worry. Be at rest". WOW WOW WOW WOW!
     I realize this story may mean more to me than it will to anyone else but as a testament to God I have to write this and hope you are encouraged. I hope you dont just find encouragement in this blog but you really do find rest. Hebrews 4. Find rest today.

In Christ
TJ Earl